maybe if i wasn't that naive all the time, i wouldn't be that miserable right now.
till date, i've just realised that i was the biggest fool in my own life,
The biggest liar who has been lying to herself countless of times.
the one who always thought she knew how to stand right up, after countless times of downfalls.
the one that thought she could protect her loved ones till time ends, but failed miserably.
the one who never grumbles about how much she forked out, when she has nothing in return.
the one who always thought that shes the perfect one for someone, when she isnt.
the one who made someone love, till hate took its place.
the one who always took you as a replacement, someone to have when im lonely.
the one who knows nothing about love, but tends to have "the know it" all attitude.
the one who thought she had the world, when she had nothing.
the one who thought the whole world only revolved around her, when it doesnt.
the one who wished that childhood times never ended.
the one who was at fault all these time, but never stopped to think why?
the one who come's up with the most stupid ideas to gain attention.
the one who always lied to herself about love, sisterhood and even.. reality.
the one who thought that she was the one who was always right and was never wrong.
the one who always thought that she was strong, when she was no where close to strong.
its this kind of attitude in me that got me, till date.
right now, you're a failure andrea. and no one is to be blamed except you.
right here, right now, i just felt that life has taken its toll on me once more.
im nowhere near death, but i can feel that its taking its leave, a step at a time.. really slowly, this kind of pain, really kills. i feel like ending my life, anyone?