♡ : Till here : 021109, 10.12am.I've laid my last pen, my final words before i close this blog down. I finally realised the darkest side of life, the most unbearable fact. the most hurting words one could say, seen the most cruel acts done by their closest ones.. i feel really weak right now, i can't vent to anyone for that matter.. but only to the fucking modem. I can't feel anything right now, utterly numb.. the only thing that will be with me thru this whole period, would be memos. memos of you, us and everyone. this is my final verdict and nothing is gonna change it.
Lying on the bed for the past 24 hours, sleeping at the same spot drenched with tears. Hugging the same old blanket which you gave me. reading the sent and received text for countless of times. Recalling every memory as the hours flashed by, dreaming about the unrealistic. hoping for something.. that wasn't there to begin with. i realised something... and i hope it would be the last thing that i would actually take note of, and that was.. never to trust anyone, be it your boyfriend/sister/brother or even plain and mundane friends. trust only yourself. You can have many sisters, tons of brothers, tons of gans, but when it comes down to your close ones, ask yourself who had been there for you?
- Friendship can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion :
The past 13 of us : tang guo tian mimi, to the cases we made, to the gossips we had, to the hugs and kisses we gave, to the numerous amounts of memo' FCLKYSASHBSV.. all kept in my ♡. take real good care, thanks for the memo'
- Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation :
And to the special you, i know your answer.. already do know. there's so many things which i wanna tell you, that many things which i need to express and let you feel and understand. i guess realization came a lil too late.. i've let the stubborn side get the better of me. i need you to know the importance of you towards me, but the harder i try.. the further you get.. so long farewell, hope you would actually remember everything i said, from the start till today. thanks friend. ♡
Last : There is no greater sorrow than to recall in misery the time when we were happy, till here.
Off to somewhere happy tonight, where no sorrows can drench happiness. :)