Forget his name, forget his face.
Forget his kiss and his warm embrace.
Forget the love that once came true.
Remember now there's someone new.
Forget the love that you once shared.
Forget the face that had once cared.
Forget the time you spent together.
Remember now he's gone forever.
Forget you cried the whole night through.
Forget him when they play your song.
Forget how close you two once were.
Remember now he's chosen her.
Forget you memorized his walk.
Forget the way he used to talk.
Forget the times he was mad.
Remember he's happy instead of sad.
Forget his teasing, gentle ways.
Forget you saw him everyday.
Forget he made your dreams come true.
Remember now she loves him too.
Forget the thrill when he walked by.
Forget him when he made you cry.
Forget the way he spoke your name.
Remember now he's not the same.
Forget the way he said he loved you.
Forget the way he kissed and hugged you.
Forget all those nights when he held you tight.
Remember now he holds her tonight.
Forget all those sunny days.
Forget all those poems he made.
Forget those times through good and bad.
Remember he said he'd never make you sad.
Forget the games he played with you.
Forget the times he stayed with you.
Forget those cold, cold nights.
Remember now he keeps her warm tonight.
Forget the way he looked at you.
Forget you kissed the whole night through.
Forget all you dreams came true.
remember... that he doesn't love you.
Note to self: *** i'm trying very hard not to cry over you because every tear is juz one more reminder tht i don't know how i'll let you go ***
After 3 days of non-stop night life i realized tht i was juz self abusing... rather stupid. But yet again, i'm heading out in 5 hours time for my friend's bday celebration at ps. hm.. well, i'm back to single life and its a official decision. took me quite some time to accept the fact.. been crying for 3 days straight and my eyes resembles gold fishes.. well.. lets just say, fate has been playing around. Maybe, somehow, somewht.. we weren't meant to be. hard to accept.
Well, this is going to be a lengthy post, filled with pixtures. smiles are deceiving so yeah. :)
Met up with charis baby on a particular day!! i forgot the date but i missed this girl of mine and she's still as cute!! cabbed to compass and had yoshinoya with my dear gurl.
Can never get tired of the beef lor!!! its juz so soooooo good. :)
Right aft, had a long chat with baby and we intended to find jy. so we headed up to his place "cuz he was sick" and nabei there was people there already!!! got our mood ruined and i chatted with his maid. i thought the maid knew my maid and i step one
So..... skip skip, went to the staircase and had a fucking long and solid talk with baby pangpang. Realized about reality and stuff and i'm glad my PP know's how to think already!!!! grow up liao right dear girl. :)
Jy came down to find us and bbp and i sorta had a hide and seek session and jy got kinda angry so we stopped and headed to his place for a short break. kekeke3
His father is a friendly creature. and so is his maid hahahaha. ^^
Headed home with bbp and i sent her to punggol and bus-ed back all by myself!!!!!!
Day 2:
Met up with wei darling and we headed to BR, got her bf to drive us thr and i missed my baby loads!!!!!! ****insert hearts***
Been owning and using bitch's cam like nobody's business. like kiasu only kekeke3
Sam dropped us off and bitch and i sat by the reservoir and enjoyed the night breeze.
I love individual time with sisters, hahahaha. ****kisses 2 my babies***
Headed home at dawn and we did alot of snap snaps:
seh ka bin hahahaha
**********MAJOR BREAKDOWN**********
day 3:
headed over to daddy's place and he got a new lap top!! fooled around with it and had another major breakdown at 10pm hahahaha cried my lungs out and its been so long since i've cried tht hard... god mummy almost cried and she sayang-ed me thru out. i love you aunt flo. thanks :))
Daddy's round tummy gave me comfort and we discussed about the boarding school in perth. might be heading thr in sept hahahah can't take the shit from singapore.
You know how it feels like when every step and every place reminds you of the person whom you once loved, the memories eats thru your flesh and it dies in your heart...... its damn hurting.
Almost cried over a plate of chicken rice. how vulnerable. :'>
Went down to meet brendan aftmath, kekeke3 tht idiot made me smile. for the first time, tht smile came from the heart. So he should be honored ok!!! :))
Had a supa long chat with bro and somehow.. my tears flowed out yet again. 2nd round of breakdown, sighs so pathetic...
Bro was afraid of the sigh-ing thing cuz his afraid of tears and it was really cute cuz when i sigh-ed he'll be like omg nooo then he'll stare at me hahahha **giggles**
Snuggled to bed and woke up by song karang guni man. Headed to find my babygurl kekeke and there was a tiny in my stockings. tore 3 of my sheer leggings already. heart like pain only.. :((
Cabbed to pasir ris and met up with babygurl, taka and her class mates hahahhaa the amanda gurl was really nice and we was bitching about a certain MANGO omg fuck serious...
wht hurts the most isn't about losing tht someone.. is losing tht someone to someone whose uglier then you, like x1999999 ain't joking ok. -not being judgmental-
Headed to puppy mill and READERS its a hoax!!! thr's no such thing as abandon puppies and etc etc.. stared at a chi hua hua and thought about some stuff and beneath my shades my tears were overcrowding my vision.. heart pain. :((
Left the place and cabbed back with baby gurl.
Was supposed to head to taipei taipei with vance, babygurl and tht someone.. but the whole plan was ruined so i decided to meet meh meh. and he was nice enough to meet me!!!!! not 24/7 but always by my side, will always remember one. :))
Took 2 hours to prepare as my eyes were really swollen.. got my grapes and headed to jy's place his room atmosphere was *y* hahahaha i love dark rooms i can't stand the light. and....... right till nao, questions marks still float in my head.
But still, thanks meh meh.. me love you. ;))
Thank got my baby gurl was awake at 8am.. cabbed over and met her and slacked at her block. wht would i be without my baby gurl.. my head was floating and my heart was in a mess. i was practically like a walking zombie and i was panicking and baby gurl was supa cute
" i should start ignoring you " hahahahhaa
Went over to her place and got to meet oreo!!! so mad adorable hahahaha. but she was really stinky.
Cuddled in babygurl's bed and sigh-ed for quite some time and asked her the same questions over and over... but still, no answer.. :((
Went back home and aft i've settled down.. i thought about stuff again. thanks luping for being thr, as a friend or a lil sister. you never failed me hahahahaha. bitched with her about someone but tht doesn't make me feel any btr.... i juz want everything to be back to as per normal..
Told baby gurl this: im so used to being tied.. im'a tied bird. how can i fly, even if im free... :))
Sighs wna get back into a relationship, should make my decision asap... :))
thank you everyone, for being there.. your effort is felt. love you guys, right from the bottom of my heart. i don't have to name any of you, felt from the heart. :))