Byesecret

Eyes puffy..
Tired really tired of everything ,
Wished that everything stopped..& returned to th past ,
where i first knew you , Shared laughters .. & Joy .
Yesterday , was offficially th day i've made you hate me ,
Thinking that it wouldnt help buhs .. guess i was wrong ,
Cried myself to sleep yesterday & as usual . was like a fucking dog crying ,
Same as those incidents where he made me cry rather,
Promised ahboy to be strong , promised clara not to cry &yet.. every word he had said..
Just made my tears flow down..
thinking about all th harsh words i've said to him ..
was really abit over , but whats done cant be undone aye ?
Hahaaas .
I guess im used to it (: , But thanks to chocolates , they really did help .
Swweeet , made me smile abit . But inside me ..
it was still dreading with pain , Those words he told ahboy , really do hurt ..
Dont ever say you love me , when you dont .. cause it would only hurt more ..
I knew you not long , loved you with my heart ..
But admited , I've wasted th space in my heart ..
where someone else should have been ,
Whyy must things be like that while every one thinks im fine .
Yeah im fine , smiling on th outside & bleeding in th inside ,
Claim you know me ? When you don't even know im sad or not uhrs ..
Why must it be like this , why must all this happen to both of us ):
but as i said to you .. Your words & actions will leave a huge mark in my heart ,
But non-th less (: always remember ..
i square onion ,
Cause thats th first word i've ever said to you & i shall always remember it ,
Thanks for th bittersweet memories , thanks for everything .
To you this may be jiaowei's bahs .. since your used to it already ,
Getting your messages yesterday..
Really makes my heart break ,
Dont worry i'll make your life easier ,
Silently leave you , wouldnt that be better .. as i don't wish to .. Make you..
in a difficult position ..
tk`care kays , Bye .
& th end , before.. it even began ..
i hope you would be happy , w/o me ..
Cause as you said , without me freedoms .. sorry for being so fan bah ,
You didnt have to keep this thing in your heart..
you could just say out .. i'll listen & cry . but at least..
It's hearing from your mouth & not others , But yeah ..
& th thing i've got for you.. hais no comment .
I want you back , possible?
doubt so .. be happy okays ..