Byesecret

Unexplained feelings,

if loves a choice between sistership's and you.
the big gap that seperate's me from reality, the one that got me way up...
and left me crashing down. uncountable tears, unspeakable heartbreaks... :(

Short short post.. cause somehow i feel me can only voice out to blogger. where my thought's can be in one piece, instead of flying all over the place.. i don't know what more can i do, i don't know how long more i cant endure such pain.. sister if you really do love him, i beg you do accept him back. dont lose him once again, your tear's aren't meant to be shed..
but as for me, i dont really bother. cause they're all dried up anyway, i just wna see you happy felicia, i need you to know this fact. your happy im happy. so now your happy i'll be as happy as you are. bloodbond's, shouldn't fight over a r/s. whoever doing so.. is just plain stupid. don't you agree? i know you won't leave me alone, neither will i leave you. dearest your the closest to me, the one who understand's me the most.. but why do we have to always go thru this.
i don blame you, i blame him. i can't ... take it anymore. I need a break, i need time to think..
reason's and explaination's never seem to be enough anymore. im tired sister.. i've tried lot's of way's in forgetting but still .. i can't seem to do so. & im sorry. :(
i should.. let go. and yes, promise me if you do treat me as a blood bond okay? ♥

On the phone with lynn ahsiao and amos earlier on.. they made me smile somehow, ahsiao is 101% super super.. the gl. ivan & boonkiat's court tomorrow. needa wake up by 8 and off to china town. I feel so relaxed now.. but still... i feel like crying, infact i alrdy am.
i hate you i hate you i hate the fact that i love you. :'( thank you for getting out of my life, beloved.